flow

 

on the eve of a new year.. this year I am going to partake in a word for the year.. I’ve contemplated this before & I’m ready to a theme word.. I’ve thought on this & I have decided that my word is going to be FLOW.. I pondered over many words, trying to find the right word that fits my thoughts.. so my thoughts are this.. I live my life so restricted by my own self imposed rules.. on the outside, I shun rules, restrictions, authority & structure.. yet, I live so regimented on the inside.. I discipline myself harshly.. I can’t fall asleep without checking the time, like I need to record when I fall asleep, when I wake, how long I slept.. and I also feel the need to record all data with lists, check lists, to do lists.. it’s so tiresome.. I record what books I read, every oracle card readings, journals for everything.. photographic records of useless data.. if I exercise, I record the steps, the minutes, sets and repetitions.. yada yada yada & so on.. this carries over into every area of my life.. so this year, I am going to give up structure.. the self imposed shit.. so the words I contemplated.. free, freedom, calm, easy, fluid, lawless, be, lax.. and I kept coming back to flow.. meaning, to go with the flow, to be flowing & easy going.. when I see this word, I know it means to relax & be more fluid and to just FLOW.. flowing doesn’t stop at check points, walls & borders.. flowing doesn’t take time to refer to lists & clocks.. so that is my 2025 word of the year.. I will remember it & make art around it.. I will remind myself to just be chill.. and right now I am fighting the urge to start my journals, add the habit tracker to my phone, set a high number of books to read on good reads.. I have ridiculous ideas of personal accomplishments that I set myself up for.. I’m 58 years young.. I want to live freely on the inside.. documenting my life is part of me, yet I need to find a way to make it more fun & creative.. I know I will go thru some anxiety while I begin to live without borders.. I’m kinda fighting it now as I want to set my goals..

i'm back [again]

i don't know why i go AWOL so often.. i get into a new hobby, or an old hobby.. and something has to go by the wayside - i guess.. i can't give everything all my attention.. lately i've been into making ATC's again.. [artist trading cards].. i used to make them years ago.. i joined a facebook group & that started me going again.. it's inspiring.. i think i want to start writing again, writing more.. so i'll be back.. 

Carl [above] he is one year old now.. what a crazy cat he is.. i have mad love for this little monster..

2024

i made it thru another year, fairly unscathed.. i'm happy & inspired & optimistic.. 

sunrise spectacular

the sunrise was stunning this morning.. i was up well before the sun, so when the sky started turning into a paint by numbers, i went outside with my camera.. surprised that it was warm enough to be out in a t-shirt.. hey, i'm Canadian.. 50 degrees IS t-shirt weather..  in the sky, the crows were emerging from their roost.. in the woods, the deer were still bedded down.. in the house, my husband slept with the 3 cats..  hot coffee in one hand, camera in the other.. i watched the sunrise spectacular.. 

seeking horses to be my friend

i'm not sure what i want to jibber jabber about yet, so i'll just put fingers to keyboard and see what spills out.. i went outside earlier, found some packages on my porch that were meant for my neighbours.. our driveways oddly intersect.. these neighbours live behind me, on a long and winding dirt road.. now that the leaves have fallen off the trees, i can see their horses grazing up on the hill.. perhaps i'm a typical girl in the sense that i find horses magical.. so i went for a walk with their packages to drop them off.. in hopes of seeing their horses out.. what a gorgeous walk.. some deer were eating in a clearing, watching me, watching them.. i want to become friendly enough with these neighbours that they let me visit their horses.. but i'm an introvert.. i've lived here 8 years and still haven't been able to approach them.. they are nice enough.. i live rural & this couple was the towns veterinarians.. we don't seem to cross paths enough tho to make casual talk.. so, i admire their equine beauties from afar.. perhaps i should make this an intention.. something to manifest.. it would force me out of my introverted shell.. a 2024 goal.. i know, after 8 years, what makes me think the 9th will be the magic year? because i could make it a priority.. 

oh and i didn't see their horses, tho it was still a beautiful walk..

winter overtook autumn in a rush

i don't know why i fall off the face of the blogging earth.. i love to write and photograph, i love to journal and document.. so where do i go when i go silent? i get lost and i lose my way.. 

autumn slipped away so quickly.. winter erupted in a rush, without so much as an Indian Summer.. perhaps it was perfectly and naturally timed and i was so busy doing other things that i failed to notice.. yeah, that's probably so.. 

meet Carl

meet Carl.. he is 5 weeks old & perfect.. we have taken care of a feral cat litter of 6.. finding them loving, forever homes.. one being ours.. he is bonding with Mark and the others kitties, Ava & Liv, are still a little threatened by his presence, but it's to be expected.. beautiful little guy.. 

connecticut koi

i met this beautiful koi in a pond in Connecticut.. 3 feet long and gorgeous.. the lady that lived there invited me to sit on her dock & feed her koi.. it felt almost magical.. it was early morning & the sun was glaring on the ponds surface.. the koi were plentiful.. 

moody morning sky

 the deep sky so opinionated

we had a long conversation at dawn

i got married today

 

it seems like it's just following the natural order of things & at the same time, seems surreal.. i married the love of my life today.. i am blessed..