i absolutely suck at maintaining sites, my blogs, site, social media shit.. i am the type to delete, reinvent, start over, run away, disappear, hide in the shadows, creep, rinse, repeat, & so on.. i thought i had deleted this blog.. i don't even know how long i've had this.. but apparently i have forgotten about it for nearly a year.. well, this is me.. sequoia spirit.. perhaps i started this blog as twilightgecko, or weege, or zoe.. hell, i don't know.. i have reinvented myself so many fecking times.. it's like they are all personalities of me.. i can rewind thru the years and name a dozen more shadows of me.. from when i was 5.. 8.. 10.. i was bo, morbid, scar, bounce.. so many.. each taking over whenever i needed to erase, forget, start fresh.. well, this era of my life, i am sequoia.. this is me trying to find who i am in the middle space.. i have been here for a good decade or more.. i figured this would be my twilight persona.. yeti don't think so.. i feel i have many travels around the sun yet.. i will be here more often, as least i say so.. then i wander into a different season & everything shifts.. i might be surprised as i look back upon this blog & see how long i've been doing this.. i still have my Ava at my side.. literally & figuratively.. she is purring at my hip as i write.. my constant, my muse.. i am still married to the love of my life, the man of my dreams.. Mark.. i have never been in a relationship this long.. really.. like, double the years i've ever existed in one space.. he is my fella.. & we continue to grow, evolve, exist.. i will be back more often.. see ya tmw..