moody morning sky

 the deep sky so opinionated

we had a long conversation at dawn

i got married today

 

it seems like it's just following the natural order of things & at the same time, seems surreal.. i married the love of my life today.. i am blessed.. 

anaplasmosis positive

 

i finally got my test results back & i'm positive for ANAPLASMOSIS.. i figured as much, but now it's confirmed.. i'm glad the doctor suspected as much & got me on the antibiotic stat, on a hunch.. i am glad i went to the hospital when i did.. 

anyway, i don't want to dwell in dark places.. i want to get back to my normal creative self.. i haven't created in so long.. i need it.. i don't feel like ME without it.. so today i shall try to let that side of me out, give it time to play.. even tho we have a LOT of stuff going on, too much to name.. i know what i need.. 

the weather is kind of keeping us indoors.. heat wave, extreme humidity & the smoke coming down from the wildfires in Canada is making it hard to be outside for long.. we get up by 5a to get outdoor chores done early, while it's cool.. we are coming up on the hottest part of the day, so it's a perfect excuse to be inside.. 

anaplasmosis

i know i need to get writing again.. so much has happened in my life as of late.. i could write a laundry list, but that just sounds like a complaint list.. i don't want to give any attention or energy to the negative.. 

i'm doing a bit of convalescing.. this hasn't been confirmed yet, still waiting on blood tests to come back, but i am proactively treating what is thought to be ANAPLASMOSIS.. a tick borne virus.. i live rural with woods all around me.. i pick ticks off me routinely.. when i was younger & lived in Canada, we had woodticks.. they were big, easy to see, totally easy to know if you got bit.. tho here in upstate New York, we have deer ticks.. and a baby deer tick can be so small that it's smaller than a speck of black pepper.. i've had to take a magnifying glass to confirm it's a tick.. so, i imagine not noticing one of those tiny buggers is easy to do.. and i do A LOT of tick checks.. 

anyway

it is believed that yes, one of those buggers got me.. as least that is what i'm being treated for.. 

the first sign? fevers.. when mine shot up to 104.2, i did the Covid test, negative.. and the fatigue.. whew

once you mention it to someone, then the stories come back as how rampant this tick borne illness is.. so & so's dogs have it, the neighbour had it, everyone knows someone.. .. .. so add me to that miserable list of statistics.. 

be careful ya'll, if you share your space with deer, as i do.. if you love the woods.. try PERMETHRIN treated clothes.. just be careful if you have cats, as they are the only animals sensitive to it.. 

be well

be happy

and love your life